someone asked me to tell about my life story….and here it is what i said
I’ll just tell a little of it. Well I’m Deissy as you can see lol Umm i have never really told anyone about my life, because idk i feel like people won’t care or it might just bother them…i grew up a hard way, i was around violence almost every day. Always hiding under my mom’s bed with my brother watching everything. My brother learned to drive at age 8, not cause he wanted to. we just needed to do something and take care of my mom. well years later on we had enough we left my dad. we moved out to texas lasted there only 6 months and moved to Colorado. in middle school teachers noticed i had mental problems. I started getting help and found out i was traumatized for the things i saw when i was very young. it took me a longgg time to get better. I didn’t spoke to my dad i hated him a lot. i catched him twice you guys can probably imagine doing what. umm years went on life seemed ok. it was hard living with a single mom and with 2 little sisters and my older brother but we would always find a way to bring food to the table. couple more years later on. my dad called me on a sunday i answerd the phone something i would never do before, but for some reason i needed to hear him and talk to him. he told me he was sorry for our past and everything i forgive him. he’s brother passed away in Mexico from a heart attack so my dad went to Mexico to his funeral i said that i was really sorry and that when we we’re about to hang up he told me “Deissy only the first shot it’s going to hurt the next ones i won’t even feel them” i was like tearing up and all i said was ok i love you dad. the next two days tuesday agu 11 2009. i was at my soccer tray outs and felt this pain in my heart that is so hard to explain. and right away my dad was just on my mind the whole time since i got the pain in my heart. all i wanted was to get home and give him a call to tell him i was going to start playing soccer soon and that i wanted him to come see one of my games. when i got home i grab the phone. When i was about to dial my dads #, my aunt from mexico my dads sister called. ( Her: ” hey deissy give your mom the phone please” Me: she’s not home. is everything ok. ” Her: give you grandma the phone i need to speak to her” Me: what’s going on, is my dad huh?? he’s dead? :(. her: Im really sorry mija” ) i threw the phone to the wall i started crying i went outside my house screaming hitting my self in my head. i was completely going crazy and loosing control.
Ever since the call my life changed completely. Everything seemed like a nightmare. Life didn’t seem reality. On my way to mexico to my dad’s funeral when i got there walk in my whole family crying looking at me and my brothers faces. i ran to my dad’s coffin. my hands shaking, scream as loud as i could. trying to get him out of there give him a hug and kiss him. I have never felt this pain ever and i don’t wish it to no body. I couldn’t touch my dad cus he’s neck was damaged all his face was. he had stitches all over his face. It’s been so hard to go through this, but i’m getting there now, ive letting go so he may rest in peace now. My life changed so much ever since all of this. & For the ones out there if you still have your parents alive. appreciate them NOW that they are here before it’s to late… Life wont ever be the same when they are gone. if you don’t talk to one of your parent, talk to them now and fix your problems with them don’t wait till the last minute. you will regret it trust me.
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